What Do I Want?

Over the past few months, I think I've made a lot of progress. By last few months, I mean since I met Helen. I think I've matured quite a lot. At the end of the day, it's progress, and that's a good thing.

Obviously with new territory comes new problems, but I think the key is just to deal with things on a day to day basis and keep my feet firmly planted on the ground.

I've noticed amongst a lot of other things other the past few months, I've been quick to state what I don't want and this is not a bad thing, because it's allowed me to get rid of alot of things that I think are very unnecessary at this stage in my development and help make progress.

However, at the same time, I don't think I've been so clear lately on what I do want, so now I'm going to look at that, and put down what I want and expect from myself, in these next few key months.

-I want a job and I want prospects. I don't like the idea of depending on others anymore, so this is going to be the key goal. To be fair, I'll take anything that's over £50 a week to get me started back on the path, but I'm not really that willing to compromise and get a call-centre job.

-I want to build myself up, but very very fit at the same time. I think this comes down to having to take a look at what I'm eating and what I'm drinking, and carrying on with a resistance programme and at the same time getting back out, starting running and whatnot to strike the balance.

-I want to eventually take things to the next level with Helen, but this isn't a main priority at the moment, things are going well, I'm very happy with her, I want to take care of these above two things, and then we can look at where we're going.

-Starting to do more and more reading, learning new things, and building on my intelligence. I want to be starting to read some very high quality stuff, I have no interest in filling my mind with junk.

So these are the main things I'll be looking at and working on, and we'll see how it goes over the next couple of days, weeks and months.

-Michael